Asal mana?

“Asal mana?”

“Asal mana?”

“Asal mana?”

Argghhhh…..I really hate this question! But you know how I answer? yah….with the biggest stupid fake smile I manage to form and soft voice,I’ll answer “Penang….” (Wrong! wrong! wrong! partially actually)

What’s the problem with that? Haha(sarcastic laugh)…….First,let me tell you MY STORY……I was born in Hospital Butterworth, Pulau Pinang.I lived there for 2 years,then we moved to Kuala Kedah,Kedah….why?Because previously my father worked as a teacher.He taught Bahasa Melayu and Sejarah and he got transferred to Kedah…..We lived there for 7 years or so……..then,my father got transferred to Kuala Lumpur….and starting from there,we live in KL……now…it has been about 14 years….I live in KL….and there goes my loghat Kedah….and currently,we live in Sg. Merab,Kajang,Selangor……Just moved there for about 4 months.

Anyway,what is my problem?My problem is with people who asked me, “asal mana?”…….Haih….Now,I’m in JKM posting….Need to do surverys in few kampung….and this villagers favourite question is ‘that question’….What is wrong with that?The wrong thing is that,they stigmatized me for answering “KL” or “Kajang”….One incident,yesterday

Pak Cik : Anak ni asal mana?

Me : Oh…Saya asal Kajang….

Pak Cik : Oh…….

Shit! I sensed something here already…..

Pak Cik : Anak ni tak biasa dengan kawasan kampung ke?

What?!!! What’s with that question??? Me living in Kajang got related to that?You shouldn’t put it that way…..When I’m in Kedah,I LIVE in kampung….how can….Oh god…..I’m putting my all to be patience with that kind of stigmata….I’m a migrant….MIGRANT…….Geez………

Therefore, I never answer KL or Kajang anymore….Since that,when people asked me, “asal mana?” I started to answer Penang….and their response

Mak Cik : Asal mana?

Me : Penang cik….

Mak Cik : Oh………area mana?

Me : Butterworth….(liar,liar,liar and with that fake smile plastered on my face)

Mak Cik : Oh…..jauh tu…..

Yelah Mak Cik…….kalo saya jawab KL,Kajang, Mak Cik nak cakap apa?Haih…..this people……I thought HIV/AIDS patients only got stigmatized……Now,where you came from also people got problem with that ah?Like people from ‘that type of area’ is infectious or something……Now I’m thinking bout my youngest sister,Liyana…..She’s from KL….purely born in KL at HKL…..I don’t know how’s she gonna live in people with this kind of stigmata stuck in their head……Poor sis…..

P/S : I’m thinking next time….I’ll answer….Sabah….or Sarawak….and I’ll choose a VERY rural area….and start to create more ‘latest’ story if they ask me about my “asal mana”

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White Coat

This few incident might occur to some of you……Once I entered 3rd year….I started to realize the goods and bads about wearing white coat……When you wear ‘the white coat’….

1.You need to smile…..allllllllllllll the time….especially,if patients around (I once in the lift, exhausted and not in really good mood,so maybe my face not really….well….you know…nice……and got this one pak cik said to me, “senyum la sikit dik…..berkerut….je pak cik tengok….Jadi doktor kene selalu senyum….bla2…..aiya……)

2.You’ll be the person where people who wonders around in the hospital will approach…..and they ask for directions and when you don’t know….you will feel terrible….(cause they will look at you with that eyes saying…”huh…….tak tau…….??”)

3.People start….”doktor…..tumpang tanya…” or “excuse me….doctor…” and you’ll say “eh,saya bukan doktor….” or…. “eh….tak,tak,saya medical student baru….”

and if you’re in the ward……some patient who sees a petite figure in a white coat,starting to approach them….what they do? hastily pulling the blanket covering their face,or even worst….pretending to sleep…haha! But still,most of the patient cooperate with us very well….Incident mentioned occurred sometimes…..

How bout in the clinic? Yes……sometimes…..the patient just ignore you like you’re just some kind of a tool in the clinic…But some,they will eye you suspiciously and their face have this expression that says….”what is this medical student doing here?this is private meeting with me and my doctor!” and you’ll act like you don’t understand their facial expression (haha,tak malu kan?demi belajar…..) However still….most of the patient are cooperative and they understand why we are there,standing and looking eagerly at them….(if in rheumato clinic,you’ll be eyeing their hands,if in cardio you’ll be too chaotic to take your stethoscope out….=P)

And today,I went to the clinic to take my second shot of Hep B vaccine…..not wearing white coat…..and haha! No one approach me (not that I’m relieve of that…..) What I’m trying to say here….is the power of ‘the white coat’ itself…..When you don’t wear them,you’re just a regular person,one of the society wandering around in the hospital with your own bussiness.But when you put them on,people start to look,wonder,and if you’re lucky enough you’ll get a smile….and if you’re unlucky enough……haha,get a scold from a doctor or a nurse =)

What a day =)

I woke up today….thinking that today will be a typical internal medcine posting day……despite of my palpitation, sweating and tremor for short case on friday~ but still, today I was able to have a happy day =) anyway, I went to the ward around 7.40am……fighting and cursing the sleepiness whilst walking to the ward……..around 8.00 am to 11.00 am I only managed to do 4 PE and mostly were the CVS and respiratory PE……Then…..I texted my registra, asking him about joining his clinic……and he asked me to come down around 11.30 am……..At 11.30 am, I went down….and he was not there (of course), I asked the nurses at the clinic and they said he’s still not in……I was not satisfied and went to the counter asking the nurse there and she asked me to look by myself using the back way…..so I went there…..asked again more nurses there…..and even went round the clinic searching for him…….Huh…..after bout 20mins at the clinic, I decided to look at the cafe and he was not there……I was almost gave up~ (hello…..this is really desperate……) I sat outside the clinic, texted him and decided to wait him for another 10min……at 12.10pm……I finally decided, “this will be the last time…………..I go look for him”. As I opened the back door of the clinic…..”Dr Megat……”. There he was…..smiling innocently at me~ cis…….

Yah…….I was soooo lucky….being blessed with two new cases….=) one patient with aortic stenosis (ejection systolic murmur radiating to the carotid with pulsatile abdomen and congenital finger clubbing grade 3 ) and another with mitral regurgitation (pansystolic murmur radiating to the axilla) Wah………after thinking that today will be another unlucky day (unable to join his clinic) I was actually being blessed (haha) despite searching and hunting in the wards for patient with murmur for two weeks!! . After that 2 cases, I went to the cafe to grab some kuih and decided to come again at 2pm…..After I paid for my food, I turned around and there…….standing, the patient with the one that had aortic stenosis ( really need to work out my ppd component here…..p/s: pls don’t remember your patient by what they have……”^^).

“Lets eat together,” was his first sentence. Oh no……..no,no,no,no,no…… “Sure,sure,sure….lets look for seats” was my reply. Damn……I don’t want……I’m a type of person who never knew how to start a conversation with a complete stranger (some more, to converse in English is one of my weakness……T.T) The seats were all full and I said he can seat anywhere,no need to seat with me since all tables were occupied…but no….he tailed behind me T.T…(hua….help~) At last, he managed to find a seat, and we sat facing each other….. To my horror, he wanted to buy me a drink. I hastily stood up and stopped him, telling him I can buy it myself. We sat, and he started the conversation…..I find it quite interesting…..he told me about himself, his diseases, his experience with other hospitals and medical students……and he asked me something about medical thingy….and all I can tell him is what I know la (to the extent of my knowledge and my hippocampus ability….huhu). He asked me why the doctor checked his neck because he never had a doctor that checked him thoroughly before….I told him sometimes the heart makes sound that is radiated to the neck (means carotid bruit la) Then, he asked me what is Echo, I said that thing is to bla3……and he asked that and this…….long story short…..lunch with him was interesting =) =) =)  (despite of me being so nervous) The last sentence from him, “so when can I meet you again? Since we had a great chat today and I’ll be sure to come again since I have appointment here”….Wah……my 1st experience with a patient (I’m a medical student…..) We exchanged phone numbers and we separated……=) What a day……..

At 2.15pm, I went back to the clinic, and again I was blessed with artificial mitral valve heart sound =D yay! Then, I went to the ward, more interesting incident……new case of young patient newly diagnosed with flare up rheumatoid arthritis (prof shahrir was there and of course, he taught us something) and there was also synovial fluid tapping =) My happy day continued with enjoyable evening jog at taman tasik permaisuri where I got to bump into……..guess who? XD