Hanging by a moment

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I’m closer to where I started
Chasing after you
I’m falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I’ve held onto
I’m standing here until you make me move
I’m hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I’m lacking
Completely incomplete
I’ll take your invitation
You take all of me now…

I’m falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I’ve held onto
I’m standing here until you make me move
I’m hanging by a moment here with you
I’m living for the only thing I know
I’m running and not quite sure where to go
And I don’t know what I’m diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There’s nothing else to lose
There’s nothing else to find
There’s nothing in the world
That can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I’m closer to where I started
Chasing after you….

I’m falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I’ve held onto
I’m standing here until you make me move
I’m hanging by a moment here with you
I’m living for the only thing I know
I’m running and not quite sure where to go
And I don’t know what I’m diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Just hanging by a moment (here with you)
Hanging by a moment (here with you)
Hanging by a moment here with you

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Breached?

Few days back, we were needed to be involve in this one particular activity which required us to have one ‘thing’ (should I put it that way). Me and few of my friends went to look for it and finally we found a store that sell the ‘thing’ that we were looking for. We were considering of how many do we have to buy. Of all the friends there, I told Friend A that I wanted to ask Friend B if Friend B already bought the ‘thing’. Friend A’s reply was, “Of all the friends, why you asked Friend B?” . I was silenced by this question and when we went back, I was thinking about that question…..Do I somehow had breached the extent to how a friend should behave to another friend? This idea nagged me awhile though I shrugged of the unanswered question away thinking that it might have been just a stupid joke from a friend.

There was suppose to be an event where I should have attended….However, to my dismay I was not informed and the event started with my absence. I passed by whilst the event was being held and I saw Friend B there…. I paced away pretending not to notice of the event. Went to a corner, sat on a chair and the question that Friend A had asked before struck my hippocampus… Deep down I felt that, “Should somehow my absence left unnoticed?” “Should somehow somebody even anybody realized of me?”. I swayed my mind back and forth thinking that…….Is it wrong for me to feel that way? Did I asked and hoped to much from my friend? Am I the only one having ‘the consideration’ and not my friend? I thought hard, trying to be rational and finally I made up my mind….Yes, most probably I had breached the extent of how I should behave as a friend to a friend…I realized that I should not hope the way I had hoped for..

We human perceived others differently. Should not a human hope others to have the same thought and should not a human blame others of what they perceived others as. I went back sat on a couch and switched on my ‘best bud’ coming to this conclusion. I taught myself to think this way which is positive (do not get me wrong) and learn to not hope what I hope for and to not ask others for what I hope for.

This may sound too metaphorically….but this is just a perception that are affected by many factors which include my emotion, my thought, my stupidity, workload, sleepy, hungry, temperature and many other factors that time

I would also like to ask for an apology and this incident got nothing to do with anybody. What I’m trying to bring forward today is just my misperceive of a concept………….

My Hari Raya =) (part 2 : ketupat)

Today is the second hari raya……In the morning, me and my family went to visit our nearby neighbors and in the afternoon……our relatives came to visit us…..They were from my mother’s side of siblings……We had a really great time today =) My small-not-yet renovated-house was really cramped with four family altogether inside……They came to our house and to our dismay……we were ‘short’ of laksa! Oh no~ My aunts and uncles bragged about wanting to eat the laksa Kedah and whilst I, my mum and my dad were serving them with other food, my sisters went to look for laksa…..

Whilst waiting for the laksa……huhu….I learnt something today…..My mum actually was asking consult from an ‘expert’ about the way to anyam ketupat correctly……..and this ‘expert’ proudly showed to us….

This is the first ketupat and it is known as ‘KETUPAT BAWANG’

Second, ‘KETUPAT PASAR”

Third, ‘KETUPAT SATAY’

and the last one…..is ‘KETUPAT JANTUNG’

But wait! there’s more…..and this one, is made purely from my mother’s hand….

What is this? This is…a ‘KETUPAT VENTRAL SEPTAL DEFECT (VSD)’ wakakakakakakakaka! It’s suppose to be ketupat jantung….but inexpertly my mum ‘give birth’ to this type of ketupat….wakakakaka!

Wait,there’s more……and this is made by my aunt…

This is…….as my father said….’KETUPAT IKAN BAWAL’ or the ‘expert’ called it….a new species ketupat….wakakakakaka!

Hahaha…..we had a really great laugh whilst the sesi menganyam ketupat was going on……wanna know who is the ‘expert’ I’ve been talking about?

Yup! It’s my uncle….my mom’s little bro….He’s the one who anyam all the ketupat….Can you imagine? A man becoming an expert to do this woman stuff…hehe…

And one thing,I also learned about laksa…..I asked my mom what are the differences between laksa penang and laksa kedah….before that……let me tell you for those who never eat laksa before…..we eat laksa not just laksa + kuah only…..but there are other side ingredients that you need to add to make your laksa more delicious and berseri-seri…=) For laksa….the side ingredients are telur rebus, bawang, nenas, timun, salad, cili (if you want it a bit spicy), limau purut and petis/otak udang. These ingredients are cut into small2 pieces and are spread on top of the laksa + kuah..So, the differences between laksa penang and laksa kedah are that for laksa kedah, the kuah is made from ikan kembung while laksa penang…..the kuah is made from ikan sardin + other ikan such as ikan kembung…means that it’s mix…..Second, laksa kedah have telur rebus as one of the ingredient but not laksa penang….and kuah laksa kedah is much more pekat than laksa penang…..=) That’s all I know about laksa at the moment…Describing the laksa just make me salivating~ haha!

My Hari Raya =)

Raya night……was the last day of our puasa…..We were ready at the dining table…..and azan heard…..and start to berbuka…..the azan finished and…..”Allahuakbar…..Allahuakbar…” Takbir! =) I smiled broadly to myself…..the end of our fasting month and I could not imagine ‘that feeling’….What feeling? Feeling of success….you know what I mean right? Yup! Kejayaan melawan hawa nafsu….hari kemenangan bagi umat Islam….=)

So lets take a peek of my Hari Raya

Yup,this year theme…..purple! and I wore a gift from someone for my birthday along with my baju raya =)

Our Hari Raya start with going to the mosque for Solat Sunat Aidilfitri…..We first went to Taman Melawati, where my father’s side grandma live. We went to a nearby mosque and today,we are celebrating 11 orang saudara baru…..today was the first Hari Raya for them as the imam said (we prayed that they had an enjoyable Hari Raya and may they find the true peace in Islam…..amin…..=) ) After praying, we gathered to eat and bermaaf-maafan…..

Yah…this is the so called ‘suasananya…’

Then,we went to my mother’s side granma at Taman Maluri…

Me, my siblings and some of my cousins

Then, we went to visit our relatives that live around KL……today….total house 7…&….wah…..what I do? Eat and eat and eat and eat somemore….eat again…..gosh…..my stomach really become distended

We also went to my father’s boss’s house

For Hari Raya, of course la…….each house will prepare the hari raya food….and for us,my mom cooked heavens of food….which are…..kuah kacang, ketupat, ketupat pulut, rendang ayam, rendang daging, kuih tart,kek coklat and the most famous dish………LAKSA KEDAH =) Erm……after 7times eating at each house we visited, we went back home and I still hungrily grabbing the bowl to eat my mom’s laksa (my appetite on the 1st day of raya is really very embarassing…..haha)

Of course……we took the family picture….

Skema…….

This is one of our best shot =) Gosh~ I love them so very much

We went back home around 9pm…..It was one of the best raya I had…

P/S : we still got duit raya…haha =P and I realize guy in baju melayu look very2 nice! Thumbs up!